Guess who's going to talk to her birth mother tomorrow at 1pm??? Guess who also was sent a picture of her??? Let me ask if it's ok to post it when I talk to her and I'll post it. I'm so excited! It's getting real. Understandably I have been hesitant to embrace this process and am stepping out of my shell. Michael and I are really looking forward to our visit. Right now we're not nervous. With all the little things I'm learning about her, it's making the gift ideas turn. I think she has a short attention span, like she wouldn't have patience to sit still, she's always on the go and she really is a teenager with wanting to use facebook and talk to her friends and stuff. I daydream a lot about what she's thinking about and how it would feel to be stuck in a hotel by yourself after being in jail since may, spending your 18th birthday there (we're bringing a belated gift for that, in fact may 'wrap' all the gifts and say that is why... cute!) and not having any of your stuff with you (she just got some of her stuff today actually). It has to be lonely and boring. I will gift accordingly, candy, handheld games etc). I've been told she's not a 'writer' so if I do a journal idea, I'll modify it to suit her attention span. smile. I was talking to my brother and sister in law tonight who have 2 children through adoption (and just had their first 'to term', healthy baby boy), picking their brain about their birth mother meeting. I told them, I'll bring our photo albums for her to look at. If it's appropriate, we'll tell her about our missionary experience and show pictures of that. I think she'd like to know how we met... I still may make her something, not a scarf but something else, we'll see. Anyway... I just wanted to document these thoughts and now will go to bed. I started this blog at 1045p and it's now 1243am. lol. I started watching survivor and thank goodness for time zones cause it's two hours earlier in Cali so I got to talk to 3 siblings, a sis in law ( i whispered to a baby nephew) and my mom and then finished the blog. lol. I'm sooooooo ready for bed! i get to sleep in tomorrow! i will not set my alarm and will not feel bad about it. Carly... I'm gonna make your letters tomorrow! I'm excited. I'll throw in a gift for your baby boy too! (thanks Hallie for the hat info I CANT WAIT!!!)
by for now y'all.